I had many emotional scars: anger, grudges, guilt and just plain-old persistent sin. I’m really bad about grudges; I hadn’t forgiven my own loved ones for things that happened when I was a child. And friends too. Then there was a pedophile that tried to molest me when I was 10. You never know how big of a load you’ve been carrying until you are finally released from them and feel light as a feather.
How did I get to forgiveness and healing? It began with a fellow seminary student who prophesied something about my life, something she had no way of knowing. I took that seriously and prayed about it, and realized there were a lot of things I hadn’t healed from, things that kept blocking my path with God. I talked about it with a few people, then decided to take advantage of the summer break to pray, talk with some trusted friends, write on my journal, and finally see a Christian counselor. It ended one afternoon on my knees, crying and calling people out by name, one by one, telling God I forgave them. It was really an act of love: Jesus told us to love, pray and do good to those who persecute us. I actually prayed in love for each one of them, that they would know the forgiveness I know, and the eternal life I’ve been given through Jesus Christ. And in gratitude for what He has done for me, I forgave those who wronged me, whether intentionally or inadvertently. It was a beautiful moment.
This song is kind of a dream about arriving at a Healing Station, a place in your mind and heart God takes you to, where the journey itself is as important as the destination. Just by choosing to take the voyage you begin to let go of things, until you come to a place where it's time to forgive. It's a marvelous thought, and I think it's true. Then you open your eyes and realize all those wounds are gone.
Scripture passages to reflect on: Matthew 5:44, Romans 12:19-21
Come on down to where the healing has begun
Come on down to the place where I am from
Come feel the rest, come touch the sky
Come tighten up the strings and make us cry
Come inside to tell a joke and make me laugh
Come on in to make me smile, make me crack
What I miss the most of those days
Are memories I know I never had
Oh, lie down by the tree and stare up high
See the sun peer through the branches deep and wide
Feel the breeze the winds are blowing
Feel the touch of heaven calling
The mouth of death is leaving you behind
Wake up, wake up and feel the sweat
It’s running down your face
The breath of love unmet
Hands lifted high, got your arms they’re open wide
And that smile, it has no place to hide
The little boy is laughing, his friend cannot believe his eyes
They get to really talking, he tells them all the times he lies
He smiles, he says I understand
I never ceased to think you grand
Let’s play, let’s do what you want
Wake up…
Wake up, wake up
Get up and feel the magic of a brand new day
Hands lifted high, got your arms all open wide
And that smile, it’s clinging to his grace
Pass the note, pay the cheque and walk outside
Stars are shining, let’s stay gazing at the night
Tomorrow skies are clearer, good night’s sleep will bring you nearer
To his house where healing becomes whole.
On the recording you will hear a person open the door and try to make as little noise as possible. That's what I get for borrowing someone's living room while the house was being renovated. That's why the track is called "Wake Up (With Eerie Foosteps)". Thank you Lloyd and Jackie!
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